Just one year ago, I was a regular Catholic, going to the Holy Mass ,praying, even go to a monastery twice a year for a couple of days.But that was all.Just business as usual.
One day I was going to the nearest medical practice, feeling me sick, nothing special,the first time in about 30 years that I have needed a doctor!, yeah : I think I am mister healthy himself !
. A lady doctor give me a checkup,and take the phone, calling a specialist and ask him to see me now ?.what’s happening here?: she asks me : can you drive ? sure , why ? go to the clinic right now , you need urgent surgery now, hurry !Are you kidding me miss ?
NO !! you are in danger, you are going to die !! I was thinking : crazy girl : I stand on my feet’s and I am in danger?:bad joke!.
But I drive to the clinic and the next 1/2 hour it looks to me I have coming into the ER soap on TV, nurse’s en doctors all over the place in white and green : horror full ! the nurse’s ( four !) put me in a bed and run with me to the surgery room, the visiting hours just take place,visitors stand beside to let us passing:probally thinking: so young, the poor men !.I shake over my whole body with fever: to make a long story short:after tree hours later I wake up , and the specialist tells me ; that was close!,we have you on the life support for a couple of hours.
Back on my chamber I was angry at myself: I always saying , when my time is coming : I will asking for a priest and now I am not even saying a prayer for myself!. Wath a catholic am I ? just words but no action .At home a friend came to visit me and I give him the full story, he smile and say : I know you, are you sure you don’t say a prayer ?.He tells me: I have seen several people taking into the surgery room (he’s a medic): the blood pressure go into the roof, and the heart the same way, from fear indeed.
At that time it hit me with full power: before the doctors put me into sleep for the operation:I pray to the Lord:have mercy on me, forgive me my sins,I even think on Medjugorje!. I remember that the nurses are saying to me: you have no fear and don’t need the tranquilizers, strange? My friend says to me, you have put your life into the hands of the Lord and indeed that’s it!
I have learned a big lesson: next hour can be your last !,be ready ! Now I take the time for praying with my heart , everything else can wait when I feel the need to pray and it give me peace, every time when I am praying I feel Him close to me.I am back on the right way!