- Fri Oct 28, 2005 8:56 am
#909
Hello all ,
I was a very sinful person before I changed through the grace of God .
Addicted to : sex and orgies , drugs , alcohol , pornography and full of bitterness and rage and hate . satan had many strongholds in my life they came on gradually and i slowly drifted away from Jesus and Mother Mary . There was always a shimmer of hope because i believe in angels and that they are messengers , deliverers and guardians to us all . My many angel pictures and statues and the cross of Christ all helped set me free , not to forget Mother Mary whom i love dearly .
So heres how it all went down . Many of my so called friends were having psychiatric breaks and maybe demon posession or at least opression . I walked in on 3 different ones on seperate occasions who were apparently alone , but having full on conversations , with who or what i am not sure , but my educated guess is evil spirits that came as angels of light . One of them when i stayed at his place in sinful San Francisco (I hate that evil city) was very cruel to me verbally and screamed horrible things at me , i saw satan in him . Any ways that day he said he saw his dead grandma floating above the bed we were sleeping on , how bizzar is that ? He was coming down from Meth and it wasn't pretty . Then one other time that i had a bunch of nasty people over one of them was on GHB and thats some wicked stuff , he tossed and turned and rolled around in my recliner like the demons were beating him up or something it was a hideous sight , i thought for sure he would die . And one other time that i was smoking meth with a so called friend he and i were taking pictures , some good some not so good . In one of the digital pictures a white arm came out of the wall near an angel picture towards me , i didn't see it , but in the picture i sure did it was translucent (could see through it) I blew it up large on the computer and there was as clear a picture as i have ever seen in the hand of ? Maybe God or maybe my Guardian angel ? He was holding something and offering it to me , we never could quite figure out what it was . Maybe it was the gift of Gods grace , love and forgiveness ? Of this I do not know , however , I decided this had gone far too far out of control and i begged Jesus for MERCY MERCY AND MORE MERCY and in one day He in His magnificence forgave a filthy sinner healed me of every addiction , sin and vice and stronghold of the devil . I changed my phone number and dropped all my friends and moved on Praise God for His Mercy . That was 5 years ago and i can honestly say that i am a different person now . I go to Mass almost daily and recieve the body and blood of Christ after 1st going to confession (about once a week) These practices of love towards God and His love towards me have set me a vile sinner free so i can spend eternity with the Lord in Heaven , through His grace and precious blood . What a friend we have in Jesus .
"Greater love than this , no man hath , then that he should lay down his life for his friends"
"A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter such as he who finds God finds"
I am very alone here now in SanDiego and I choose to have no close friends because I don't trust people any more , but i offer it to Jesus every day in attonment as penance and for the salvation of other sinners like my wretched self .
God be praised , Remember He loves you dearly , If He could love and forgive me the greatest of sinners , He can surely love and forgive you too .
Look up Jesus is Coming Soon It'll be the greatest air lift in history when He raptures us the church , oh how i look foreward to that wonderful day .
Pray for peace in Jerusalem and the middle east , Armageddon may be SOON .
Ryan
(Please pray for me , thank you ! )
I was a very sinful person before I changed through the grace of God .
Addicted to : sex and orgies , drugs , alcohol , pornography and full of bitterness and rage and hate . satan had many strongholds in my life they came on gradually and i slowly drifted away from Jesus and Mother Mary . There was always a shimmer of hope because i believe in angels and that they are messengers , deliverers and guardians to us all . My many angel pictures and statues and the cross of Christ all helped set me free , not to forget Mother Mary whom i love dearly .
So heres how it all went down . Many of my so called friends were having psychiatric breaks and maybe demon posession or at least opression . I walked in on 3 different ones on seperate occasions who were apparently alone , but having full on conversations , with who or what i am not sure , but my educated guess is evil spirits that came as angels of light . One of them when i stayed at his place in sinful San Francisco (I hate that evil city) was very cruel to me verbally and screamed horrible things at me , i saw satan in him . Any ways that day he said he saw his dead grandma floating above the bed we were sleeping on , how bizzar is that ? He was coming down from Meth and it wasn't pretty . Then one other time that i had a bunch of nasty people over one of them was on GHB and thats some wicked stuff , he tossed and turned and rolled around in my recliner like the demons were beating him up or something it was a hideous sight , i thought for sure he would die . And one other time that i was smoking meth with a so called friend he and i were taking pictures , some good some not so good . In one of the digital pictures a white arm came out of the wall near an angel picture towards me , i didn't see it , but in the picture i sure did it was translucent (could see through it) I blew it up large on the computer and there was as clear a picture as i have ever seen in the hand of ? Maybe God or maybe my Guardian angel ? He was holding something and offering it to me , we never could quite figure out what it was . Maybe it was the gift of Gods grace , love and forgiveness ? Of this I do not know , however , I decided this had gone far too far out of control and i begged Jesus for MERCY MERCY AND MORE MERCY and in one day He in His magnificence forgave a filthy sinner healed me of every addiction , sin and vice and stronghold of the devil . I changed my phone number and dropped all my friends and moved on Praise God for His Mercy . That was 5 years ago and i can honestly say that i am a different person now . I go to Mass almost daily and recieve the body and blood of Christ after 1st going to confession (about once a week) These practices of love towards God and His love towards me have set me a vile sinner free so i can spend eternity with the Lord in Heaven , through His grace and precious blood . What a friend we have in Jesus .
"Greater love than this , no man hath , then that he should lay down his life for his friends"
"A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter such as he who finds God finds"
I am very alone here now in SanDiego and I choose to have no close friends because I don't trust people any more , but i offer it to Jesus every day in attonment as penance and for the salvation of other sinners like my wretched self .
God be praised , Remember He loves you dearly , If He could love and forgive me the greatest of sinners , He can surely love and forgive you too .
Look up Jesus is Coming Soon It'll be the greatest air lift in history when He raptures us the church , oh how i look foreward to that wonderful day .
Pray for peace in Jerusalem and the middle east , Armageddon may be SOON .
Ryan
(Please pray for me , thank you ! )
Matthew 24:40-41
Then two shall be in the field ; one shall be taken and one shall be left.Two women shall be grinding at the mill ; one shall be taken and one shall be left . Which one will you be ? Taken or Left Behind , Make a decision today !
Then two shall be in the field ; one shall be taken and one shall be left.Two women shall be grinding at the mill ; one shall be taken and one shall be left . Which one will you be ? Taken or Left Behind , Make a decision today !