Mary, thank you for sharing your story in more details.
If Medjuorje were ruled against...I would not leave our beautiful faith.
It was not Medjugorje that opened my heart...it was Jesus Who did.
But Medjugorje is the last effort of Jesus giving His Blessed Mother the graces she needs in order to help turn this world around...isn't it a mother's loving touch that we always seem to turn to when hurt, scared, or upset?
Look around you, Mary, how many hurt, scared, or upset souls do you see?
Two books I would highly recommend for you at this time in your winter of the soul, would be the St Faustina's Diariy of Divine Mercy and a book about a little known saint named St. Gemma Galgani. You will find much comfort in these books, Mary.