On December 26th 2005 I was feeling regret that I had skipped Christmas Mass for the first time in my life. That night I pondered where my life was headed and never thought that I would fall this far from God. Among other things I also had been in the habit of searching the internet almost daily looking for the truth of what is wrong with the world and why things are the way they are. I prayed from the heart and asked God if the truth was even out there and if we could know the truth. I heard the Blessed Virgin Mary speak to me inside my head (I just knew it was her). She said: "The truth is with God."
For the months that followed Mary guided me on the path of holiness showing me many things and helped me "stay" on my walk with God. God reminded me of all the times, (is still reminding me) He spoke to me in my life, all the times I fell away and why. God showed me How He was working in my life and put many things together and showed me why they happened. God told me what was happening in the world and how I fit in His plan for salvation. He showed me why bad things happen, and how He turns them around and ultimately uses them for His glory. God has showed me in many ways why He created this world and why we are here. When I see people getting mad at God for bad things that happen, I think how absurd it is to think this way since God has shown me why they happen. I sometimes "wish" bad things would happen to me after seeing what glory it ends up giving God in heaven, but God has denied me this priveledge. It is a VERY GREAT HONOR to offer your sufferings up to the Lord. You can't do it in heaven so we might as well take advantage of this oppurtunity while we are here on Earth.
God has a great big plan for the world, a plan that will bring His chosen very close to Him as well as cause many conversions. Sometimes situations that bring us close aren't always pleasant ones. We all will be given great oppurtunities to share the faith, each and every one of us. God will equipt us with all we need to do our part in His plan. So long as we keep God first in our lives and put are trust in Him, we will stay under God's protection. Remember that no matter what happens, God is king and is above Satan regardless of how things appear to be.
Your friend in Christ Rob