Ok, sorry guys if I don't hang out as much on here lately. I just haven't been feeling like it lately (like I told Spirit in a private PM, I've been sulking).
Spirit: Knock knock!
Izzy: Who's there?
(sorry, I'm not very good at this game. Being francophone and all! lol)
Other then that, I started taking my new pills and I've finally had a very satisfying night of sleep. I'm also happy about the fact that they are non addictive and that I will wake-up if need be unlike other sleeping pills. The shrink recomended that I go to these group therapy things. Might be fun, I'll have to try them out.
I can't wait to start working!! The days are getting warmer and things are starting to flower! I saw my first crocus today!!!
Spiritually... I was feeling on a spiritual high last week. Now I'm experiencing a bit of dryness and I can also see how the senses and the inner-self are conflicting worlds. I feel a little torn in between.
I'm also mad, because -some- people on this forum assume too much and think they got (good) answers for everything. I do realise that they think they are helping me. Well, they are not always of help. Prayers help, because then I am illuminated and instructed by a higher power. It's a whole lot more effective then any human advice I can get. I'm sorry if this offends anyone but I can't keep this on my chess and keep hanging out on this forum like nothing bothers me. STOP ASSUMING. You don't have the capability or charism to see everything and everymoment of my life. You know who you are.
Also, respect my pace. I can only change at a certain pace. I can't snap my fingers or wigle my nose and change overnight. A tree doesn't produce fruit overnight. It's gotta start somewhere. I know my faults, believe me I DO. I AM NOT TRYING TO LIVE IN DENIAL OF MY FAULTS. But allow me to germinate, to slowly grow, to put on leaves, then flowers and eventually fruit! plllllease!!! Respect my pace!
You know, there is a reason why I want to go to Medjugorje. I wouldn't want to go if I didn't feel like I didn't need it. I NEED IT!
I'm not too sure why I wrote that last sentence, but yeah! Anyway...
Thank you for keeping me in your prayers. I do keep reading the posts on the forum and following the threads that interrest me most. Sorry for being a "silent seeker" at the moment.
PS- I want to apologize again if I offended anyone. It is not my goal to sound ungreatfull.