- Thu Feb 03, 2011 5:37 pm
Why are you expected to get up at 3AM for adoration? I don't think I'd be successful at that either.
My process evolved over months even years I guess until it has reached a comfortable equilibrium. I never set an alarm to get up a 5 to pray; the thought never crossed my mind. It just happened. It fits into my life and it's great for me but perhaps not for anyone else. I had no preconceived plan. Our Holy Mother invited me, clearly, but I was initially drawn to get up because I just wanted some coffee not prayer. Rather strange how these things happen.
One thing I know is that prayer and fasting together are very powerful activites that bring enormous graces and much peace and calm in a world filled with calamity. In the words of Ivan, "It's a process, conversion is a life long process." To this I would agree. It is the richest and most rewarding journey of all and I feel blessed to be on this journey with people like you and everyone else on this forum.
Be kind to yourself. I don't think God keeps score in our efforts to move toward Him whether fasting or prayer or confession or whatever. I think He just wants us to think of Him either in success of fasting or failure of a particular fast either way He is on our mind on those days and that is a good thing. I believe He appreciates all of our efforts. If you are getting up at 3AM to worship Him even once in awhile then wow, that is a great sacrifice. Don't be jealous of me, I'm a much better sinner than anything else.
Good luck and God Bless.