Another moment of breaking down

[cggirl1984]

Im like so on the verge of a heart attack now.

A credit collector is asking for money, for a clinic that I never saw. The doctor who I had issues with never sent that clinic anything, and it seems like now someone in the hospital took my information and gave it to someone else to use, or used themselves. Its my new address that I used since I was in the hospital last year.

I lost a year of my life with everything, I lost 1yr of school n having issues reinstating, cant get a job, lost so many loved ones, beacuse wither they were acting twofaced or time hasnt given us a chance to spend together like old time, but what hurts the most is the guy I loved with all my heart doesnt want anything to do with me but I took it as a not meant to be and moved on and pray that everyone is safe and happy always and God to protect everyone I know and knewm never once wished pr prayed anyone illwill. everything went south for a year now. And when you are 25, 1 year feels like an eternity.

And just as things slowly start to get better, Ive been wanting to spend time with family, my temper and pride are put in check, my diet improved, Im praying daily and I keep up with prayers cause I feel deep in my heart of hearts everything happened because I forgot God and they slowly started to get better, now this feels like a huge 2 steps back.

I dont have the strength to be tested anymore. I am not strong enough, my parents arent strong enough. I dont know if God is testing me, or if demons want to play jokes on me cause its funny to seem me have a breakdown.
I have been crying and praying all day and feel week, lost and even more confused. I dont know anything anymore

[kenneth]

Praying for you that things work out. Hail Marys...

God bless you and look after you.

[OnASpiritualJourney2]

I'm praying for you. Talk to Jesus and give Him everything. Ask His Mother to pray for you and to help you. This too shall pass. One day you will look back on this and see what blessings came through your struggles. Asking Padre Pio to watch over you too.

Hail Mary ...

[Ritacheryl]

Praying, cggirl. Can you not see someone for legal advice? There should be some community resource you could use. Ask the people in the church you go to.

[Susanne]

Praying for you too, cggirl.
I'm sure things will work out for you.

Susanne


Jesus, I Trust in You!

[cggirl1984]

thanks everyone. I dont know what to do anymore.

Ive been praying asking for help and everything for so long. Now it feels like everything went back. I ask Jesus to help me fully trust in him and forgive and help me, I know it helped but now everything went back to worse.

As of now, the credit-debt collectors said they can not tell me what the bill is for or from what doctor because of a privacy law (I am the one who is being billed!!! What privacy are they protecting???!!! The bill is for me in my name and it is against the law for them to share medical information and bills for me, with me!! What a joke!!)

The hospital and all the docotrs thats I worked with said that all bill should only have the hospital name, which they all had the name of the hospital and the doctors..

I called up information, the address listed for the clinic is non existant!!! The debt collectors say it is the valid address and will request them to send me a bill so I know who and what its for, but the city 411, is telling me the address doesnt exist.

The debt collectors only told me the date, which was the date I was in the hospital. But this place has no affiliation with the hospital or its doctors. Its has the name of a real clinic in the city, but the address doesnt exist.

My dads friend knows lawyers, they cant do anything yet, which means I just deal with it for now also.
My parents are so calm, but they are living in an America when they first came to the country, when there wasnt a person who wronged another, and others were trustful and helpful.

Im still in panic mode, jittering and loss of breath. Everything is just so much right now.
I hope Jesus knows that I trully love and trust him, and I ask Jesus for help to make me stronger always, I ask for forgiveness daily. I ask the blessed mother for help me, I pray and ask the angels in heaven, I ask for myself, for loved ones and for my new medjugore family here. I dont know if I am doing something wrong, or if I still have an ounce of doubt hidden inside me. Im just so lost now, like back at square one.

I was never strong. Im too weak emotionally. I dont know if God wants to try to help me get stronger. I really feel weaker now.
I wish I took the phone number the priest I talked with back 'home' this summer, he understood me and helped me so much.

I so need a long nap to calm down some. (if only possible to wake up 3 or 4 years ago, everything I know now would be number one and I never would have forgotten God for one minute)

Thank you all for prayers. Please continue. I am keeping all of you in my prayers also.
God bless all of you and your families.

[LittleRed]

Prayers being sent your way!!.....

When a door closes, God always opens a window elsewhere......sometimes it is the hardest part of life is trying to find that open window.....Hang in there!!

Bless, Sharon

[Ritacheryl]

Praying for you to find a solution and for the strength to stay calm in the face of this adversity.

[Mt. Carmel]

cggirl1984 - Is there such a thing as Legal Aid or a Citizens' Advice Centre in the US? Can you get access to Legal advice and action via Medicare/Social Services and the mental/emotional/physical outcomes route?

Living here in the UK we can access all these routes.

I will most certainly pray that the final outcome is just, and that you and your family may best learn/be guided to handle/manage the stress.


Peace and Love. [And a good nights sleep.]

[cggirl1984]

As of right now, nothing can be done. Just wait to see if whoever sent the credit collectors the bill to collect sends me a copy of the bill. Because it might be that whoever works for the collectors typed in the wrong clinic and wrong address, thats why its from a non existant address in the city. Its a waiting game now.

I feel a little calmer today, thanks everyone for prayers. Please continue praying.

In the past I would have given up, but after a nap, and a deep breath, I went back to praying.

Everything is too confusing right now. And it just bums me out, 1 year I lost and now Im scared that I might lose another year of everything. This felt like the longest year ever, and it just still has me that I am scared I wont get back to where I was.
At this moment, it feels like yeah all the doors are closed and whatever window is in the room is wallpapered over and I have to really dig and crawl my way thru. (thanks for that metaphor about the doors and window, it was like a lightbulb in my head went off, knowing yeah things will get better, but it feels like a time to dig for that window.)

Thank you all soo much!! I honestly in my heart of hearts, dont know what I would do without this community.
Praying for all of you also.
God Bless all of you and your families.

[Ritacheryl]

Glad to hear that you are ready to fight, cggirl. That is half the battle won. I continue to pray that your problems are sorted out and you can get back to where you want to be.

[OnASpiritualJourney2]

So glad to hear that you're working through this and continuing to pray. Prayer will help you to find the window. Prayers continue for you.

Hail Mary ...

[Ritacheryl]

Continuing to pray for you, cggirl.

[cggirl1984]

Thank you all for the prayers.
Stressful times, week n day, but I hope that all of this and everything will be as normal as it can. If this was test, I hope I passed it, cause after losing my cool and crying, I took a deep breath, and went back to praying.

Thank you all again for continuing to keep me in your prayers. All of you are always in my thoughts and prayers also.,

God Bless..