I believe in the heavens they do not cry about an abortion,
they cry because of the circumstances that lead to people taking a decision to abort.
The circumstances are sad of course, but surely the outcome is sad too ?
Flooding the streets against abortion is like cutting your hair.
You cut the points, however underneath it keeps growing,
because the circumstances that lead to it are just getting worse.
I think the resolution here is to pray, then hopefully you can stop the growth.
However, in Ireland's case as there is a referendum coming,
and you have a one sided biased media,
then at least in my human understanding (as opposed to
wisdom from the Holy Spirit)
it is a good idea at least for those who feel called to do so
to be out on the streets talking about the pro-life message.
In the final judgement they will not ask you: Did you go to this and that demonstration?
No. They will ask: Did you feed the hungry pregnant mother?
Did you cloth the pregnant daughter?
Did you invite the pregnant lonely girl to your house?
Were you any safe ground for anybody who would otherwise only come to the conclusion that the only solution is abortion?
How can you be so sure that God will not ask if you went to a demonstration?
I thought prayer can be in thought, words, or deeds.
What if you offered your attendance at a demonstration as a prayer
and/or joined in with any prayers said at the demonstration ?
I hope I can adequately answer the other questions you have raised from my own examination of conscience
I feel like taking to a cave for the foreseeable future as the early church fathers did in the dessert.
Its like everyone is saying evil is good and good is evil.
There is an appeal to how the early church lived.
Sometimes I think I would like to be living in Medjugorje,
where you can converse with friends and colleagues who are likely to be
motivated about praying and you can discuss your faith
without fear of disdain, mockery or judgement.
Then I think that my call is to be in Ireland.
This is where people are needed to be a good example by their life.
Also in Medjugorje, people are people so they will continue to be not perfect.
Also, you can't have all pilgrims moving there.
So the move to Medjugorje is on the long finger - unless God's plans change.
I totally agree with you regarding 'Its like everyone is saying evil is good and good is evil. '
After all both Yes and No sides in the abortion debate talk about compassion.
Something i learned is that if your going to vote yes on this;
your automatically ex-communicating yourself and won't be
able to receive holy communion. There's even ministers of holy communion out advocating for the Yes side.
So this means that there'll either be nobody going up to receive it or everyone will be swanning up thinking they have every right to.
My money is on the latter.
This is scary and sheer confusion when ministers of holy communion are advocating for a Yes vote.
The best thing I can think of is to pray for their conversion.